It was obvious, but it took talking to someone else to realize it. If you want to do something, you need to do it.
Like so much advice, it is so simple. Yet so difficult.
But I’m doing it. I'm increasing my output, creating more space so I can find more stars.
My first step in this journey is spending a bit of time in the morning, outside, doing a quick sketch, before logging in to work and write.
Today, as I trolled the bottom of my bag for supplies, I realized I only had a pen and a highlighter.
Yes, a highlighter works. But why not give myself the tools to do better?
In fact, why am I not fully supplied for my freelancing, too? A better camera? Why not. Upgrade my computer? Yup, it’s time. I need to give myself the right tools for the job. Like any good business, the needed tools have to be budgeted in.
Because here I am, talking about making stuff, dreaming about making stuff, and obsessing about my freelancing. Yet, I’m heading out to do a drawing with a purse filled with a lipgloss, a highlighter, and a phone. Then I return to an office that is functional, but in need of upgrades.
I think my personal output (and my desire for tools) waned as I chased paid gigs. I felt flat, and that dullness lingered, because I wasn’t doing the work that nurtured me. You have to do the work that makes you good at what you do. Does that make sense?
When I’m being creative, I’m primed to give my clients the best writing and imagery possible.
And here’s the cool part: Now that I’ve been taking some time for myself, to draw and write stories, I’m happier. I’m more productive. Plus, I’ve had more client work come my way than I have in months.
So, my advice to myself (and to anyone reading) is don’t chase the dollars. They’ll come. Truly, they will.
Go easy on yourself. Do what you love. And get yourself to the right tools for the job.